BUt, I do know I'm not waiting around to see how their lives play out while mine is stalled...I am ready for love again.
It is interesting how empty your love tank becomes over time and how your heart really longs for the happiness it is missing. BUt, that you start to realize that your happiness is NOT dependent on your S. Never really was, but because your lives were so entwined you lose a part of who you were..
Then you come here..you go through all the various stages of grief over and over and over... and the people here support you, and give you opinions and 2x4's when needed and scoop you off the pavement when you think you can't even breathe...
Then you get up and you move forward..each day..it gets easier and better...then months past...then a year... then more...
And then you find yourself in this new place and you realize you are going to be okay,,,, in fact you are going to be better than okay...
You have this whole new life waiting for you...and you've found yourself again along the way..
...and you realize that YOU are the ONLY thing that you control...and that your happiness is directly related to how you relate to others and how you perceive yourself and the world around you..
...and then you've arrived onto a new road that is brighter and has unlimited happiness in its path..)
^^^Well said GTO!!! LOVE the post! YOU clearly know what you want. I'm sorry to hear about the D but life goes on and you deserve better, well we all do!
Good luck GTO!
Newman
me40; W43 M18; T~20 D18; S13 & S3 bomb 5/9/11 EA busted 4/30/12; 9/4/12; 4/29/13; 6/10/13 same OM
Separated 4/1/14
"Even a flicker of light will shine through darkness-12/25/2012"....better days ahead.
