I forgot I was going all NC on him and have answered his calls all day. I'll not do that tomorrow and just get the kids to call him before bed.

Yesterday I felt so anxious but today I feel fine.

We did have an awkward exchange about lying. He said he has always lied, to everyone. That he does it because he doesn't want to let people down. That he has always let people down and disappointed everyone. I validated his feelings and used words of affirmation but felt terribly sad for the little boy that was searching for love from his parents. I really hope he seeks help, but I can see that I'm getting better at detachment and did my bit and walked away. He needs to fix himself and his own mess.


M32 H37
DD1 6 DD2 5
M6 T10
EA 31.08.13
Separated and H moved out 19.09.13
ILYBINILWY 23.09.13
OW 11.13