So lost and hurt #3

[indigo1]

So she called while I was at the beach saying she had a bad feeling about something. She was right. I told her what D said to me. She admitted OM was there but that they grew up together and he is in a relationship right now that is on the rocks. Admitted they have hugged but nothing more, that he basically helped her emotionally while she was very mad at me. Swears they are just friends but she thinks he likes her. Just sent me a long text about how her thinking I'm mad at her is killing her. That she is still confused and cannot make any promises about our future. That she sees and appreciates my positive changes. It's just hard for her when she thinks back on how things were. I have calmed myself down from before, just reminding myself I can't control what she does.

She also said he is around a lot less now that her anger towards me is gone now. It's just the bad memories that are hard to get over. It felt good to let her know what D told me. The old me would have kept it in and let it control me.