Not sure what to do at this point

[Tina825]

Hi all, I've been on the forum and wasn't sure how to start new thread until someone helped me just now.

8-2012 H Stated - He was not happy, he felt we were just business partners, and he needed some space. Left for two days, came back and then I found out he had been having an EA with someone we both know. We both went to IC and also went to MC. I continued, he did not. He did not like our C. I asked him to move out until we could figure out what we were going to do. He left and was gone until February 2013. Came back, I was still going to IC, he nothing.

Things were going well until 8-2013 - I walked outside to take garbage out and he was on a second phone. I asked him to leave. He said "We are DONE anyway". Found out it's the same OW as last year.

He has been up and down emotionally since then. One day wanting a D, the next day he misses me and loves me. I'm pretty sure MLC.

I have done the DB techniques and have been working on me, GAL, staying busy with other things. I have backslid a couple times with comments I've made but all in all I feel I've done pretty good.

We own a business together and therefore have daily contact. I make sure I do not initiate any R talk. So for the last two months, we have had civil conversations, he's taken S on occasion and he has met us for dinner.

I feel really strong right now, I've detached and I honestly don't have that pain in my heart anymore.

Yesterday evening, he comes over and hugs me and asks me if I want him back. I said if he wants to even begin to work on it, he has to do NC with OW in front of me. He said he knew what he had to do. He said if I didn't want him back that was ok and if I wanted to take it slow that was ok too that he understood. I basically left him hanging. I didn't respond.

Now he wants to go to dinner tonight. My problem is this, I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now. Not sure what I want. I do not believe any of what he says, and half of what he does. So for me at this point, I'm pretty sure I am detached.

Don't know where to go from here.