randy and anyone who has been d for several years and has rebuildt or is trying: do you feel when you are trying that something is missing, that you feel a void , but as time goes on that void becomes smaller and then goes by? While in church this weekend, I just felt like something was missing/lost or even gone from my ex and I, I seem to describe it the way I want too. Dropped off daughter Sun and he was telling me about his bike ride and we were joking around then I left and every Sun I will leave and then around dinner time I get my daughter inviting me over. She tells me that d wants to invite me over. I don't know why he doesn't say something while I'm there, its not like I have ever said no. I declined last night, I was doing laundry and since I live in a aprt. complex in my building 4 people use the laundry washer/dryer so I have to take my clothes out as soon as they are done. I don't know if I'm missing the human touch or what, god I can't wait until our c starts. I mentioned to him where to c was and I don't think he was paying attention, he just said yeah, yeah. I will give him directions one more time and when the appt is. I guess the passion is gone I hope someone understands what I'm trying to describe!
