Thanks for responding Anita. I am seeing baby steps and trying to stay positive. Sometimes neg thoughts creep in my mind but I block them. Isometimes want to ask him who is on cell with or where he was. I resist the(haven't did it in over a month ) I know that needy,pressuring,ask questions is not attractive ! I am so glad that you 2 are moving toward being a family again. I wish you soooo much luck. I sometimes wonder why it takes a crisis for us to grow because it hurts soooooo bad but it will be worth it.

I start Tennis lessons on tuesday. SOmething I always wanted to do and never did. 180 for me. I can't wait!