halo: yes, you just described me--a doulbe life for sure. I thought it was friendship also and grass greener. How did you make a break from OM. Just curious. OM still calls me once in a while or e-mails me. Thge kicker for me was when he strated drinking again after 12 yr sober. Now he always calls me that he hasn't had a drink, doing well. Last night, d had dance, I had such a headache when I came home from work, I went to drop off d after dance and of course ex wasn't there. D was like maybe he is over uncle house's still helping him with his house. I got frustrated and made a comment that if I would have known that, then I would have taken her straight to my house. D said that she didn't want to sleep over my house anyway. Around 9 p.m. ex calls, I'm in the bathroom and d tells him how if he does this the next time mom is taking me to her house. He finally came home at 10:10 p.m. and then I left to go home. I feel like the babysitter. D was reading and nothing good on t.v. so I starred at th ceiling thinking what am I doing here, this is not my home. I started having thoughts of OM and wondering what he was doing. I was almost asleep and d said that I could go and lie down in d's bedroom. I told her no, thats not my bed anymore and started thinking--nothing in this house is mine anymore. I just can't wait until counseling!!!!!!!!
