I know just how you feel,I was the same for me and it still is in a way and we have been living together for 6 months.
You just have to think positive,I didn't read all your posts as I don't get back to the board much now.If you still love your X
work on it.Being sober for 2 weeks is good but I would say he has a long way to go ,how do you know you will be happy.
Make a family,a little pain and discomfort has been worth it.