Hey J. indigo is right. Do what you need to do. If you need to feel pain, or get up and leave the room just do it. Like someone told me you can't be a robot all the time. It is so hard seeing someone acting the way our spouse's do, hurting us, our families, having no regard for anyone. It is so difficult, but we cannot fix it right now.
I still think you are doing well. Just make sure you feel the emotions and let them out in whatever way you need to.
Whack a few golf balls and imagine someone's face on them.
Hope you are feeling better soon.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
