anitasues, just take it one day at a time. So what if the tapes are under the computer table. Dont get upset but you were wrong to look for them. Dont check up on him to see if he is doing what you want him to do. Just do things to make you a better person. I have not heard anymore about OM, I have prayed you let him go. The only way you can make your M work is it you try with all your heart. You made the comment that you are the one that does everything. What do you mean by this??? It sounds like to me that H is trying to be more involved with you and D. Baby steps, sometimes you have to look really hard to find them but it is obvious they are there in your situation. One thing you said puzzled me. You said that you want to get back with your XH because it was the right thing to do. (sorry if I butchered your words, thats just what I got out of it.) Its the right thing to do says who. Dont get me wrong I am a part of this message board to save marriages. I am a firm believer all marriages can be saved. It may just be me but I dont understand, Do you want you M back because you love your XH and dont want to live another minute w/o him? or because you are EXPECTED to be with him? I dont know if you have been spending time alone to figure out who you were. I did it and its a great way to rediscover who you are. You said that he was your first "boyfriend", this may of been a long time ago but you have to think back to when and why ya'll fell in love with each other. I read it when you said all your friends were doing it (getting married) but that is not a good enough reason. I dont believe that was your simple mind talking. IMO you have a lot of anger built up inside you about everything you went through over the last years. Girl let it go. Pick your battles. Practice Db'ing even in your sleep!!! I hope you dont take what I'm saying the wrong way. Im not trying to be ugly, just trying to let you know what I see!!! Putting in my two cents!! I wish you the best of luck!!! Halo
Halo
Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect.
It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.
