Where do I begin? So much happens in a few hours here lately that I take hour by hour because day by day is too long.
- I practiced some validation while talking with H about his experience while deployed and what made him snap. Instead of preparing my argument in my head, I just stayed quiet, listening (big step for me). As he talked and noticed I was actually listening, his tone of voice got lower and calmer. He cried and actually talked a lot. He mentioned all the ways he felt abandoned or pushed away by me when he needed me. Of course I had my arguments against that, but I just said I was sorry. He got even calmer and said, how come you never listened to me before?
- after this convo things got a little calmer, but he did mention he may be sent to work across the country and if we weren't working, he'd go by himself. I wanted to ring his neck, especially because this is not the time to talk about this. Baby is due in two days! Plus, my parents were 10 minutes away.
- with my parents here, H has been really nice, friendly and social with them. It was very awkward at first and it still is at times. It occurred to me this is H's first interaction with civilians besides myself in a social setting for more than 8 months.
- while driving to a restaurant today, H asked when we should get a new car because hours is crowded now with double stroller and two baby cars eats. Then he said that maybe we should keep this one for a couple more years and then get a van so we can actually travel. Hum? Are we talking about the future?
- I was reading "Love must be tough" and H came behind me, asking what I was reading. Oops. Since I was on the kindle, I quickly moved it to "The Five love languages" and he asked what it was about. He was actually curious about the concept of the book and wanted to know more.
