WHEN PATIENCE IS LOST

[Ambivalent]

Well I have been stewing in my juices here is Miserytown.

I wrote a letter to H. because he may not consider what I and my daughter have seen.

When putting in black and white it really pops out.

I am trusting in God on this one.

I sent this with only love in my heart. I don't want to lose my H. to a suicide, for he HAS expressed how overwhelmed he is, and the stress on him could make the strongest person snap.

So I did it. I did not copy a site, or address. I spoke from the heart. No sermon, no condescension, just a thought.

He has been very open with me about his feelings, and concerns, so I feel I owe him the same. He can do with it what he will, but at least the seed is there. If he sees his doctor again, he may bring it up, knowing him, he probably will.

Since he did seek out help on his own, this may give him some answers.


" I don't know if this may have crossed your mind. At one point you mentioned you didn't know if " this is my mid life crisis ". It may be but it could be something else or both?...


Have you considered depression?


It is different in men than women, some of the symptoms coincide.


Since you are seeing that guy, he may be able to let you know if it is a possibility.


You and I, have dealt with a lot of stress over the years. This past year has been up there in the stress dept. Things that we know cause stress, and those we just kind of bury can sneak up on oneself. I know I've had to up my Zoloft, due to stress.


Your Dad's death, xxxx xxxxxx suicide, job loss, my depression over empty nesting, finances, house, school pmts...all of this has been slammed into one heck of a pkg., One of these alone, can trigger one, but really when I write it down...I'm amazed you are still standing. I'm amazed we haven't killed each other! lol...


Continuous stress and anxiety over several years. And yes, my libido wasn't there for you or I to release tension and reconnect during all of the crap with which we've tried to deal.


Daughter has been around us enough the past few years,

She may be a good one to ask if she sees any of the possible symptoms. Especially since she suffers from a form.


Not a diagnosis, just possibly an answer to the "cloud" you once mentioned to me at lunch.


M.


I'm praying God helps him see the light, that I have the strength to endure , and that we both can come together as one again.
Amen