Her making and keeping eye contact and not looking away is not enough? Baby steps, grasshopper, baby steps!
Eye contact is something you do when there is good things going on...
I could look into her eyes all day. I just need more.
For the year leading up to BD, I told her how important I thought it was that we make our R a priority. This after finding out she couldn't have children. It is now 10 months since BD. 200 days since she moved out. I'm struggling to keep going on. I feel like I have put off my own needs for nearly two years. I'm not saying that I don't share responsibility, but I am so tired of feeling alone. No one to share anything with. I had a grandfather whom I never met because he died of a heart attack at my age. It could all end tomorrow. Who would know? Who would care? Maybe this has all triggered a MLC for me. I cannot say.
I hope I'll be more rational tomorrow. It is just so hard to see her every day and not to reach out and hold her, to say what is in my heart.
