this is my first read in your thread and all i can say is how obvious your need for time alone is.
they say that no woman can find her center until she is truly alone
it sux... buleave me... you're together forever, and then there's no one...
you absolutely must work on becoming what you want to be, and fight fight fight those urges to change so a man will like you.... (it's what you're doing, you know? plain as black and white, to me)
