Move out! Well, that was just my honest answer to a question asked. As I said above I don't know what that looks like right now, but I considering options none of which he will go for I am sure.
The financial issue is the only one. Once I loosely presented a small option he was not happy. He elevated his insistence of not leaving to saying, " I won't pay bills anywhere else, so I would have to move in with EA" so I said, at that point upon agreement...your free.
He continued to speak about how he has no desire to be in a R w/ea, to which I replied, well than I think you have some thinking to do. He said, no I don't...I'm not trying to separate us.
Regardless, I have to continue to move forward and figure out what my future without him will look like and go after it with a plan. The longevity of this seems to be the most powerful destructor of it all.
My H is showing signs wherever he goes of being an unadjusted person, and it has affected every aspect of his life. He works, eats properly, lives comfortable, and stays off the street 90 percent of the time because of me. Nothing I'm doing special, I just make a home as I always have.
He said he still has his loyalty to this family and to me forever (while adding no loyalty to ea, but an addiction) but can no longer give of himself. What's a girl to do with that, I need soo much more!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
