Thanks to Job and Heather for your posts on my last thread. I had to sit back for quite some time before the desire for revenge took a back seat. I had a session with my C and he couldn't believe the anger I expressed. I also wrote an email telling XSO exactly what I thought of him. I still haven't sent it. My C says it would be my way of saying "this is it" - as if his marriage hadn't already said that. However I still feel the need to keep that door ajar, as stupid as that seems in the circumstances. And do I really want to lower myself to his level? Throwing dirt his way would feel like I was letting myself down in some way. But who knows, maybe one day!
On to the new dilemma...
We still do not have a sale on the house. It is getting cold and dark here and I feel that mentally I have moved out. But with no sale there is no money.
My S and BIL have just bought an investment property for rental, I asked if I could have first refusal a few weeks back when we appeared to have a buyer for the house. they have called today to say the sale should complete within the next two weeks.
What do I do. I want to move back closer to my family. to start over. find a job (I haven't had a "proper" job in over 10 years - will any one want me?) Do my own "thing".
However without the money from the house sale I have very limited funds. Certainly not enough to support myself for more than 2-3 months at the outside.
Do I jump at the opportunity and hope for the best.
Will an empty property be as easy to sell? Not doing great at the moment anyway.
What happens if I run out of cash and cant get a job?
What if..?
The other issue is this is what XSO and I had intended to do before the MLC blew in - feels odd doing it on my own - but don't really want to stay here either. Living here was his dream - it is my nightmare now.
Will have to make this decision relatively quickly - they will need to find other tenants if I decide to stay here. And if I leave there is soooo much to do (on my own)
I can talk myself into both situations at present. Not an answer. Any other perspectives out there??
