Mom still continues to hang on, but is getting worse. It seems like every time I think that she CAN'T get worse, she gets worse.
We spent our birthday together on Friday. She was kind of depressed, but I think she perked up a little towards the end of our visit.
Not much from XW. I do know that she is awfully worried about my mom and her stepdad who also has cancer.
S18 hasn't been to visit her since September. He seems to want to go less and less. The other three sons haven't even seen her new place and two of them still have not met her new husband. Girly-man is what I call him.
Anyways, my thinking seems to have changed slightly. Sure, I have lost a lot in this mess, but I am also starting to realize what XW has lost. I think she may have lost even more. Sure I lost my wife and some material things, but she has lost much more. Her relationships with our boys seems to be virtually non-existent. It makes me sad in a way. She always had a decent relationship with all of them before. Not so much these days.
I sometimes wonder if they ever start to realize the carnage they've created. Oh wait, the carnage......isn't that supposed to be blamed on me or do they eventually realize it?
Just blabbing....have to run for now.
Tad
Currently: M 56 XW 57 Sons 38,33,31,29
The Sitch: Married 26 years EA w/ OM 9/10 Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary) Sep 12/10 She wants D 1/11 W files 5/11 D final 10/11 XW marries OM 6/13
