I saw what you wrote on Bea's thread about not finishing stuff. It rang true for me. I used to be the same way. And if I am honest, sometimes I still am.
It was one of the things I worked on as it bothered me some.
I think, for me, part of it was that I was worried it wouldnt turn out "perfect". Part a fear of failure or a fear of success.
Who knows?
I just know I didnt like it so I went about changing it. And I often force myself to sit down and get 'er done. I am always happy when I do.
I am organized, as I told you, so I make a lot of lists. And it does feel good to cross those things off of it. It seems like the list never ends but that's a whole other story. LOL!
Nero, it seems to me like you are doing your best to move forward. I am so happy you are.
But I also feel like you are kinda stuck. It happens.
I think that you can shift it a little so that it's not a bad thing.
You imagine all these things he is doing with ow. You imagine how he feels, how she is taking your place. And you dont really know for sure any of that, right?
So, it is good to try to stop yourself from going there. I can tell you with my own sitch that a lot of what I thought was not at all what was happening.
And it says a lot that he comes to see you and spends time with you. As you've said, he doesnt have to.
I think he is very confused. I think he doesnt know what to do about it. So he is just going about things hoping to figure it all out.
I feel he needs you in his life. It is not lost on him how important you are in it. He just cant see that now.
I'd like to see you try to think outside your comfort zone a bit. Try some new stuff. Meet some new people. Fill your life more.
It wont be the same as having him in it, I know. But it will help you to not have so much time to think about it all.
