Thanks pud and indigo for the encouragement. Just needed some time to recover from another mini BD. I feel like I am working my butt off every day to make myself better with very little payoff. I am not yet to the point where I can truly say that the changes are for me and I don't care what she thinks.
Changes I am making in my life are very rewarding, but it's frustrating when W cannot see them for what they are. I would love to see some sort of movement from her side.
One day I'll reach the point of complete detachment where I know that I can live without her and I will be at peace with any outcome. I am not there yet. I can only keep struggling to get to that point. Maybe then I will find the peace and happiness that she kept posting about on FB.
Ironically, it was Children's Sabbath at church today. The entire worship service was dedicated to family. Sermon went through ways to strengthen your family bonds. Very appropriate. Maybe not ironic.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
