well, this was the first V-day that I didn't give the ex a card. I thought he would at least say happy valentines day since he started the counseling talk first. Reading elwood's post made me realized, I know I hurt my ex and I don't want to do it again, he deserves to be happy and maybe I missed my family life so much that I want to recapture it, but I don't think that is possible. I was thinking about when he came back from Poland last summer and I ran to him and kissed him, I didn't feel anything, I felt like I has kissed my uncle or something. I really regret this whole divorce thing. I should have kept my big mouth shut and rolled with the punches and I would still be married and I wound't have to deal with this whole mess. On v day OM came over with 2 cards he used to always to do a funny one and a serious one. flowers, candy, lottery tickets and yeah I went out to dinner with him and had a great time. We did all this on Friday because the OM said the didn't want to mess up Saturday for me in case I had plans.
