hiya- yeah, now tht you say that out loud- i hear ya. i get it all mixed up alot of the time- just without really focusing in- get that overall - mushed up "overwhelming" feelings come and go- I sometimes forget to view them alll separate and distinct from general mlc-life m.o. here.
i know you're rite about the whole "be self" - BUT TRY & detach from what the heck they're up to - thing.
i am getting bettr at it- not completely there- and of course that is frustrating- to even have a moment of 'AWARENESS" come sneaking aorund me. sniggling itself into my consciousness - messing me up a bit; til i can shove it back out the door.
i am me- that's all i have really- this good ole person inside here.
and you're rite- i forget that Not saying something- has to be about me, other than just reining in self and having some self-dicipline. i am glad to be more takin charge of that. honest - i get it totally in life (after listening to my mother & sisters too) that NO ONE NEEEEEDS to know everything we're thinking or feeling all the time. it's awful in fact- when i find myself judging my favorite "ranters" and hating it- then i think of me, wonder if i do same- decide i do somewhat - and reinforce self's determination to not be that too in life. . recipe for disaster.
so, i'm actually glad for some of the changees i'm working on and better at and , yes, have MADE... WOO HOO.
thanks for note- it keeps me on track- it's not the end of the world to have a dreary moment - rte? as long as i get up, dust self off and get going again.
oh yeah- some great old saying out there - about falling down isn't the pr0blem - staying down is....
who me, down for good? i don't think so. xxoo thanks as usual
