The thing is Job, he did things as a teen. He partied, a lot. Drank, did drugs. I used to tell him, if I met him in high school that I'd have never given him the time of day.
He was very social, friends with everybody. I just don't know if I buy into the issue about his childhood. I can see more the introspection about where he is today, and where he wanted to be, way more. Who knows and at this point does it reeeally matter?
He did text me today:
" Just left Naval Academy football game with George. I'm writing a larger email response I will finish and send tomorrow "
" Okay, Navy game ? You got lucky "
" Tickets were 20. Huge tailgate parties before and after the game "
" Have a nice time , this is the Army Navy right ? " "No the A/N game is usually played in Philadelphia. "
Now I'm a wreck, if he's sending me a huge email I don't know if I want to know what's in it. I'm so scared and I just want to crawl under a rock.
I feel like what it must be like to be bi polar. This is horrible.
I'm imagining him telling me he's going to go to the attny's office and put an end to all of this . That I was right, it isn't fair and we should go ahead with a divorce.
Don't ask for what you don't want...closure. I'm so distraught. I hope he doesn't drag this out , that he does get this over with swiftly.
This is such a cruel cruel way to go after all these years.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
