what is a SBT counselor??? I am thinking about giving him my copy of DB, see if he takes it. He was never a reader, but maybe he would did it since we have been to 3 counselors and a priest and we did not have success with anyone. I know it's going to take him a long time to forgive me, told me the other day that he wants to put the past aside and move on, daughter needs a family. I amy saving the sex toy conversation for a counseling session. I have tried massage oil and he would say that oil is supposed to be on salads and look at the mess your making on the bedsheets, tried strawberries/whip cream, again stop making a mess, clean yourself up. So that part will definately take time. I want to clear the air before we go any further into trying to repair this relationship because we left soooo many things unsaid. I appreciate your advice and the tape tip.