thanks for vote of confidence. i know what you'er saying. sometimes i wonder if i truly can (really) envision life without him in it. he's been there my entire adult life.
i've been "attached" to someone my entire adult life. i'm not so afraid - i'm glad to be alive and healthy - so wtf?? i can deal with what4ever comes i guess. like, do we really have a choice about it anyway? i think not...
I'm very tired just now. i don't look forward to the holidays- i can't even acknowledge them in my mind. i am a bit "shut off" feeling rite now. good or bad- idk
anyway- you sound good and i'm glad of it. i'm jealous that you're so sure of what you're thinking and feeling.
i can't think about it- tv show worth watching in ten min. gonna get cleaned up and in bed and just try and not even remember he exists in my life- see what tomorrow brings i guess.
