Nero - there is a sort of dynamic between the MLC shaping us and our changes in response to it. I am not sure that we actually make the emotional decisions as arrive at them. It is a bit like wanting to be at the end of our journey, whereas the journey ends when we arrive. Ummm this sounds a bit zen, but there you are.
We do get there, we try to make changes, and sometimes the changes make us. I have recently cut back drastically on coffee drinking and I think it has addled my brain.
There aren't really answers in the way we might think, just the power to get on with our lives, and enjoy being the new person that circumstance has forced on us. I think most of us fight this for a long time.
As for the tasks, yes, it requires huge self discipline to change - and to face what comfort we find in this constant sense of chores and duties. Learning to give ourselves permission to feel and do what we really want (probably draw the line at ripping off the OPs head and setting fire to SOs car!LOL) Positive thoughts and actions really are beneficial even if a bit Pollyannaish. And we do not need to bend ourselves all out of shape in this quest for perfection!
Hang in there girl and stop beating yourself up, sounds like your family do it for you anyway. You sound like my sort of person.
