Terrible night. I come home after a football game at 1am. (My job). I'm dtanding beside the bed when the home phone rings at 1:10 am with OM on the line. Huge blow up and R talk. Everything from her leaving to "she's not in a MLC" to "I've checked your phone" to "you've been acting too happy lately" to "you are just trying to get closer to the kids so you can use them against me."
So much hateful venom that I can't even remember it all. I stand begore her and assure her that my changes are for me and my boys, not to impress her. Every positive change that I have made in the last 6 months was thrown up in my face as some sort of thing I was doing to get at her. I also set the boundary that if she must talk to OM it cannot be in our house because that is disrespectful.
So frustrating. I have tried so hard to be better for myself and my children and try to protect them from all of this. Every positive thing I've done is turned against me. I feel like ripping something apart or crawling in a hole right now. I'm trying not to give OM any energy but it's hard when he calls when I'm standing next to the phone at 1 in the morning.
Gonna be a long sleepless night for me...
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Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
