You are right. My emotional state right now is not good. The thing is, when I was thinking about divorce, my mind was clear and coherent. I was content and had gotten to a place of acceptance. The counseling session really throw a curve ball at me that I was not expecting. The last three weeks I had made it a point to really work and focus on myself. I was working out, getting involved at school, with my daughter's activities, etc. I lived as if my wife did not exist and I started to feel good. I continued to do things around the house and to help her out like I've been doing the last 6 months but I did those things because I wanted to not because I was trying to work on the relationship.
I think what is happening is that I had accepted divorce and now an event has happened to is challenging that decision. I will think more about this before acting.
