Mimi, some of your posts are like you are actually in my mind! I have some of the very same thoughts as you. When I did talk to my H on the phone the 1 time we have talked since he left, it felt super awkward like a first date and I was scared to tell him I was doing ok! It was like he would think "Oh ok, she doesn't need me!"
I've also been trying to find some new friends who are interested in getting up off the couch and doing stuff. My current friends are all content to just sit around all day and eat. Not that I don't enjoy doing that on occasion, but I'd love to find a running group or something.
Good job on the progress you've made on yourself! I think you are doing great by setting up some goals for yourself here. Are you going to any IC yourself right now?
It would be cool if we lived near each other but I'm sure the chances of that are slim to none. Its so nice to be able to talk with someone my age who is going through this stuff. None of my friends or family have ever been through anything like this.
I also can't imagine how hard it is to be in a new city with absolutely nobody around that you could really count on. You are doing amazingly well with all that's going on.
Me: 31 H: 32 Married 10 years, together 11 No kids H moved out to an apt 8-3-13
Experience: That most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God, do you learn. ~C.S. Lewis
Its so nice to be able to talk with someone my age who is going through this stuff. None of my friends or family have ever been through anything like this. 