I say, "Go ahead and own it ALL" b/c she will never know, and you won't waste time on thinking about her or measuring and you might even stay working on you.
I like that. I will try to look at my situation more so in that way.
Be careful with this SP...I did that for a long while and it sapped me with guilt and depression. I get what 25 is trying to get you to see but be careful completley owning the demise of your M unless you can do it from the outside looking in to further grow and learn from this.