Being very challenged living together and H thinking he is joking about hoping I find someone else. I went out to lunch with a friend and I said it was a "friend" not a male or female. It was a female. H just kept pushing wanting it to be a man. I walked away and he came to find me. H also likes to kid and knows it pushed my buttons. H also tried to initiate sex again Tuesday night and I said no. H told me it was me who started it. He does that a lot or says we didn't have it. My bad I got upset be cause he was insisting it was me. Then when I did get mad he said he was kidding. I politely said we are not at a place to joke or kid so please don't. H said you are correct. I was doing so well all day being happy and nice but then he pushes and I reached. A new day tomorrow!! Also, 180 is challenging too.My 180 would be more interested in what he is doing, helping, sitting to watch what he is watching, etc. Spending more time with him is not what I need to be doing!
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
