MNS... I wish I could say something that would take your pain away. I am praying for you. Like you, I have many sleepless nights. Like you, I question faith and God sometimes. I ruined my 16 year marriage (18 year relationship) with an affair. I realized too late how much my wife meant to me. At my wife's request, I moved out on Aug 7th. This past weekend she told me she is filing for divorce. I have been in IC since June. This has helped me see the hurt I have caused and the reasoning behind my actions/choices. However, that still does not help the sleepless nights and the feelings of hopelessness. As so many on this board have said...you are a person...you HAVE value. Use this time to better yourself. Keep your eye on the Lord..He has you in His hands and will not let you slip through His fingers. You can trust Him. Even when it seems hopeless, He is there for you. Take care and God Bless
