I agree, ladies. It just [censored]. He is great with S1, to the point of obsession, but at the same time he wants to leave us. Sigh.

I just got a call from the hospital saying we should be there at 5:30 am. He thinks it's too early. Excuse me? It's the birth of your child. Not a plane flight.

When I had S1 I was in labor for 12 hours and didn't sleep at all that night. H slept at least five hours while my mom tended to me. They finally did a csection and I was drugged up and pretty out of it, and I slept some of that afternoon. S1 was sent to NICU for respiratory issues and I couldn't relax anymore. The phone rang in the middle of the night and I knew it was the NICU with news on the baby. I couldn't get to the phone because of the pain and asked H to get it. He yelled that he wanted to sleep because he didn't sleep well the night before!!!!

And btw, yes, I saw way more red flags I can think of before we were married and this is why I decided to go to C by myself: I need to figure out why I keep doing this: getting involved when my instincts keep telling me not to.


M: 34 H:41
M: 3 T:5
S1 and S0
SS11
BD: 8/13
EA: 8/13