Ang, thanks, I am really trying to be more calm and graceful. It's hard but something I need to change in myself. I'm glad it's shining through! I know you can be this way too, I see it in you.
preggo, thanks for checking out my thread. We ARE in the same leaky boat.
So today, I woke up with anxious feelings. Probably just from not knowing what is going to happen from one day to the next. I know I can't worry about that, but it's hard when my body does it for me!
I had a good cry in the shower. This time though, I didn't cry for me. I cried for H. It was probably more of a prayer. I cried that he was hurting so much. I cried that I just want him to feel better and to be truly happy. I cried that he was confused and upset and really has no one to share that with. I cried that he felt he had to take drastic actions and ignore his family. I felt for him.<sniff>
Ok, that's the weepy stuff. I also had a song stuck in my head.
Don't ya know that I'm still standing, better than I ever did Looking like a true survivor Feeling like a little kid I'm still standing after all this time Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
Appropriate song to have stuck in your head! I looked up the Elton John lyrics to this and they are spot on, whoa.
I feel like I want to tell him that I am here for him, whatever he wants to talk about and whenever he wants to share. I will even duct tape my mouth so I can't talk over him, lol. But I know I can't do that right now. I have to let him be and sort things out in his head. Especially after what has happened the past few days.
Sigh.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
