Btw, this morning I told H I still expected him to look for a place to live, if he wasn't in this 100%. He called me controlling. I said, how could I be controlling if I was setting him free to fulfill exactly what he wanted? I said I just needed to have some boundaries for my mental health and the well being of the kids. He then said he wants us to continue with MC and that I should be patient with him. I said my patience is running thin.
This is when he got home and we went straight to talking, with him making allegations that I was throwing him out.
For the first time ever since this drama started, I told him I'm not sure about what I feel for him either, and I'm not sure if I will ever feel passion and closeness for him again.
