Right now I'm working on getting back into a fitness routine after my little foot injury sidelined me for a while.
I've bought new clothes and some new accessories and started dressing up a bit more for work just because. I am using makeup more often now as well. I got a nice hair cut and color last week and some acrylic nails put on!
I'm still attending IC regularly.
Made tons of plans with friends and family and I'm busier now than I've ever been.
Accuray, before I learned about DB; I made the mistake of pointing out how much better I was acting. This was before he moved out. One of his complaints was that I didn't put him first. After a few weeks of trying better at that, I stupidly asked him if he thought I was doing better with that. I wish I could go back in time and zip up my own lips then.
My therapist seems to be pushing me towards trying to have a meeting with my H and asking him honestly what his feelings are. I don't feel up to doing that quite yet since I feel like he's somewhere in the tunnel and nowhere near the end. I did want to ask him to meet me for drinks one day though since I have random stuff he needs like credit cards, insurance cards, and when he left he forgot to take his jacket. Looks like he'll be needing that soon, too.
His mother told me that he seemed angry at the world and that nobody ever listens to him and he never gets his way. Sounds like something a 4 year old would say to me. I'm angry at him tonight. I'm angry that he just waltzed away from all his responsibilities and left me to deal with all the house chores myself, all the yard work, and left all the animals behind while he's just out in his fresh new apartment playing video games or whatever. Even though I have some anger tonight, I am still standing and I will continue to do anything to save this marriage. I meant every word I said in our vows. Through good times and (REALLY) bad ones. I know that patience is the #1 ingredient, so I am being as kind and patient as I can be.
Me: 31 H: 32 Married 10 years, together 11 No kids H moved out to an apt 8-3-13
Experience: That most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God, do you learn. ~C.S. Lewis
