i wonder. iknow i'm a fearful person- well, was alot worse at other times of mylife. i guess that's the downside of being all "possessve" of what you have that you feel is SOOOOO IMPORTANT to you and your happiness.
the mere thought of loss- it squashes you rite down and all your gumption with it. . the good news i guess about the bad news is that you get squashed rite down into the turf - and then when you realize you're not dead - not likely to get dead- and in fact begin to pick up and get going again- it's something like "victory". knowing you have nothing left pretty muich to "lose" and you're not dead - and even laugh now or then. or alot- even if it's not good ole "happiness"laughing- even seeing the humour in your plight is something.
i keep thinking of an article that says even ifyou make yourself laugh - and it's fake as heck- your body releases something or another that helps you feel better. i'll take it- good ole fake attitude improvement- any improvement at all- real or fake.
no shame. that's me- no shame at all. that's what i like about the feeling like a human being rite there sholder to shoulder with every other person alive on the planet. may have more money or more looks or less of both- but we're allllll the same more or less under the skin - ta da!
i could sure be a good monk or cult member- i can honestly tap into it - that feeling of being all one...(
oh well-
ya know- i wasn't really kidding about the book thing. i have a tiny little book i picked up one morning in a book shop- three bucks or something. cutefunny drawings and maybe 25 or so pages- something like "just be yourself" kind of stuff. i don't even particularly like some of he little proverbs or "tru-isms" - but i love the book.
i went and got one for my neice - struggling sometimes with life, job, family, h ,anxiety & etc etc - alllll of the things we all do. she loved it- got one for her sister- got one for neice up here- one for her sister- somehow picking up that little thing- seeing one little "thought" that applies so well- and "reminds" me - makes me get up, dust yourself off and face another day.
no kidding- if you could distil it all into about 20 or so little "thoughts" think of allll the people who would pick it up on a bad ;morning (most of them lately) and just get their brain going down the rite trail with a thought that "united" them a bit- welllll.....
i love that kind of stuff- and mind control as well
think about it man- da da da dummmmmmm......
so- would you wear a disguise and a wig for your first interview with oprah???? would you need to be unknown? or just go for it- and bam it all out there in life as your real self???
xxoo thanks for sharing your stuff man- it makes such a dif to alot of us -
