Just got off the phone with my lawyer.....H's lawyer said that I'm involving my kids in litigation. As in they are overhearing me talking to other people about H having a mlc and to most recently they are to choose items h can take.

Omg I'm shaking. Shaking! If I'm on the phone in another room, or floor, and they're listening in what am I supposed to do? Where can I talk to my lawyer and friends? I close the door but they're 14 and 18 and want to know. I don't yell or talk overly loudly, except when I was talking to him directly about bouncing the mortgage, but that was one time. As for the furniture I told her I had done some reading and talked to some professionals and part of the problem with kids going through this is they feel like their powerless so helping to pick furniture allows them an opportunity to feel like they have power in the situation. I've told the boys we can replace stuff. They're angry. I messaged H directly and HE phoned S18 to discuss it!!!!! I told my lawyer that. I told her he asked my s if he was "an fn idiot?" That he accused S of having her here at 8:30 on a Saturday morning to record the phone conversation. SECOND time he's accused someone of recording phone conversations.

She said I need to tell the boys not to listen. I said I have but they're teenagers and this affects them. Of course they're frying to hear what they can! She said they cannot talk to their dad about it.......I said I don't want to be accused of telling the boys what they can and cannot say and that they have every right to say what they need to to their father. I ask them how I make them feel. If what I'm doing bothers them. Ways I can make it easier.
I've done nothing but care for our boys. Protect them as best I can. I don't tell them how crazy their father is, they've figured that out on their own, I'm so upset. HOW DARE HE ACCUSE ME OF THIS!

He has, essentially, abandoned them, and I'm he awful parent. I'm so upset. When does this get better?? Really? I don't know how much more I can take

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Bomb drop April 4;
Moved out April 13
D started-full force
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Dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and
you’re gonna hear me ROAR