First of all, this comment below killed me. So very sad from a man's perspective! I hope you gain some strength in this area so that it becomes less painful to you. You have handled all of this with so much honor. Your kids will see that someday.
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Increasingly, as I have seen the girls - which is mostly at XW's house - I have had this feeling that I am/we are lying to them about allowing them to have hope and/or expectations with regards to the relationship their parents have. The older ones don't talk about it much, but I can see that they're hurting and they want their dad to come home. The little one is too young to stop asking for what she wants, so she still asks me to stay the night and "when am I coming home?" Those questions...the ones my littlest one asks and the ones my older ones ask only with their eyes...those are the body blows that really accumulate over time and wear me down.
Also, I LOVED the patience definitions that you shared.
"active waiting...exercising faith...even when the desires of our hearts are delayed....and enduring well."
Hang in there. In the short time I've known you, you've shown yourself to be a good man. I wish you all the best as you move forward!
