What's even weirder is that just a few hours ago you were excited about dating someone else and that you were proud to proclaim you were "done".
For NTX and everyone - first off, thanks for the encouraging words. It is a positive move, although I'm not sure how I feel about it.
I think I threw some stuff out flippantly - as far as dating, I would ONLY date as a friend and something very minor like coffee. Period. I even hesitate at that because it's very easy to get close to someone and not realize your feelings have run off with you. If I sit back and think about it, I probably wouldn't even think about anything serious until after my kids were out of the house, and since S11 is his age, that's like 7-8 years off. I simply relayed a conversation point. I am not excited, have no one in mind, and am not interested in it - I'm flattered some women showed interest in me, but that's it: flattered.
Secondly, I'm still "done" - meaning I'm not willing to do any more of the exhausting on-and-on blame game that W has been playing the past 6-8 months. Maybe I've become a little cynical, but I fully expect W to change her mind some time over this next week. That's part of the reason I asked for a week, and backed way off of it. I offered my appreciation, and validated that it was a tough decision. She has tried to flirt with me even tonight, and I just said, "Hey, flirty! I know you're just having fun, but this is a tricky/sensitive time, and I don't want to get ahead of ourselves."
W has her aunt and grandma in to visit, so that's helping keep the communication from her end down, and I'm extremely busy with work. I also have my kids all week because our babysitter is out of town, so that adds to it as well. With all the busyness, I'm thinking about asking W to take ANOTHER week where she can really think about things when she has time and focus.
I'm still taking some time to digest actually, so I'm not ignoring people, just not sure where my head/feelings are totally.
