Nero, my friend, I want you to know that I see who you are. I see the kind of person you are inside. .
You are right, we do not know what tomorrow will bring. But, we can have great hope that it will bring something good. Or we could strive to enjoy what it brings.
I cannot tell you how happy it makes me to hear that you are capturing moments of pleasure and that you now see the possibility of true happiness one day. I most certainly think you are on the right road.
You should never feel sorry for how you love. It is who you are. And I think you're pretty great. You know, Nero, you will get to where you need to be when you get there. There are not timelines, no straight roads here. Everyone's journey is unique to them.
And you are right, he could just walk out of your life. He chooses not to and I think that is telling. If you are not ready or willing to remove him from your life, then you should not. As long as you are not getting lost in the process.
I know what you are saying about putting others first. I am the same way. But I have slowly began to learn, very slowly - LOL!, that it is ok to take care of me, too.
This is all a process, my friend. And you are looking within and hashing some stuff out. As long as you are doing that, you are moving forward.
