For me to get through this, I had to at some point acknowledge that I was in a state of longing for the past, the way things used to be. I wasn't living today, in the present.
I was afraid to completely let go because then it would be gone, poof. But it was gone anyway.
Accepting that and really examining the life I have now allowed me to move forward. I have a pretty great life, and when I was able to clear my own fog of "but this is not the life that I had planned," gratitude for that became central to me.
Accepting where I am today, not longing for something that is no more or being anxious about the future. I am all I need.
It's a practice.
Jump into your life feet first. Let H have his, after all, you'll still be in contact, you have the kids in common.
You don't know what the future holds.
Be grateful for today.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
