Tsquared2: How in the world have you hung in there all this time? I've already learned so much from your threads, but now that I'm living this horrible, post-affair junk....just, seriously, HOW? You are amazing! Your attitude is amazing.
Mach1: You are right. I know you are. And you've given me some very good, detailed things that I need to do. I am just terrified. I realize that, at this point, who he is, shouldn't really matter to me. He is not the man I married...and he is NOT the man, right now, that I want to stay with the rest of my life. BUT....I'm terrified of the unknown and terrified that it's already over. I feel like I'm hanging onto to nothing. The M that I had is gone. My H is mostly gone.
cat04: I "want" it to get better. I do. So, so much. Just not at all sure that I am strong enough to stand for him with all this hate. So, boundaries? Let me think on it.
Thank you to EVERYONE who has been sending good thoughts...and for sticking with me through this. Thank you for believing in me and for believing that I am stronger than I think I am.
I'm just still in a bit of a fog. This morning I woke up, and for a brief moment I forgot about it. Then, the pain hit me like a wall...and I just feel like I'm walking around in a dream....a really bad dream.
Looks like I still have lots and lots more work to do on me...FOR me...and FOR my kids.
