Many heartfelt thanks F, you put so many things into a different perspective. I will think on replying or not. I have reread her email and basically it states "as soon as I am able to I will arrange the solicitor to send the letter". So I suppose she has just sent me her decision.
You are so right, I have plenty of guilt and I do need to stop it, but it is very hard when I have had so many people put that guilt on me. Yes mostly her family and friends, but guilt anyway.
Sometimes I just want people to see or hear my side of the story. Especially my boys. I want someone to stand up for me, rather than everyone standing up for the W.
F, I will try to start a new goal now, by not feeling the guilt as much as I have. I will focus (which I have tried to do) on continuing to be a better dad to my boys, and show them a happy dad. Which in turn will make them happy. I will have fun at the party. Already managed to organise a fantastic special cake made as an original. One of ones you see on the cake shows. Cost nearly $200. I have made a speech up. So I am set.
I have to focus on my two boys, who are my blood, my ones who I love and care for. The ones who I am trying to keep my long term goals for (a house for them if and when needed in life).
Glad you liked the humour at the end as well.
Closer and closer to the sunset, beers, cows and sheep.
ME:51 W:46 M:25 S:22, S:20 Divorced 16/9/15 BD 10/12 W left 12/12 with OW, affair confirmed Nov/12. Dark since 6/13 I"m in a new relationship since Feb 14.
