Living on a roller coaster

[CallaghanClown]

I'm still wading through all the recommended threads and I've come across references to thinking your H had brain damage. My H was a sportsman and over the past 2/3 years I've had several occasions, including visits to doctors/specialists, when I've asked if repeated knocks to the head could be causing his withdrawal/memory loss/lack of motivation/depression etc. I'm starting to realise his MLC journey has been going on for far longer than I ever imagined.

There have been so many occasions when he's been incoherent, forgetful to the point of dangerous (forgetting to feed the kids), unresponsive (unable to hear anything the kids said to him). It's all starting to click now.

But what stage is he in now?

Could it still be Replay? I get the impression he's realised the sex texts are fulfilling the pain he has.

Depression? He's been depressed for years. I has thought he was improving but in Friday his depression was worse than ever.

It can't be withdrawal because he texts/calls me every day.

It's certainly not acceptance!

I wonder how much longer it will be till be moves fully into depression so we can get closer to acceptance?

I know they say not to set yourself any timescales but I don't think I could hold out for longer than I year. I'm still young and want to be loved again one day!