Jon, again read and reread NTX's posts.

You have such a hard time when things aren't black or white, when things are uncertain. That's something you can learn to deal with because nothing in the world is black or white or certain.


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss