yeah - rite - could you please explain what the heck s-e-x is? thanks alot- talk about something you usd to remember-
duhhhhhhh
it was a nice nice trip - pretty leaves & towns and fun to travel - hang out, etc. how this guy spends time with me and likes it- and then tra las off to ow, etc. - well, honestly - - - - idk- i will never "get this" i guess. lost cause to evwen try.
in his universse apparently - somehow & smetiems - anthing about me is not worth keeping if it costs hiimhis ow and his "NEW LIFE" THAT Is so enthralling-
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i would like sinmcerely to let go of the whole "gotta understand" thing in life.
at 62 years of age- i find out not only do i not understand (really) almost everyone i know- i've been on a totally wrong trail in life - in general - i think, across thew board.
this could either be "freeing" or something else. i'm not sure what. it's not torturie- because i'm traiNING MYSELf to just keep saying "i do not care" and i'm believing it alot of the time, well, maybe half.
i guess it wouldn't all wake me up in the nite if i didn't- but for the days- i mostly manage to just shove it somewhere in my mind and go on with my life more and more "outside" of the mlc world.
i'm leting it all and my mother make me too nuts- i do not want to become her- bitter- rantie- selfcentered-
well, her and alot of people- blame blame blame-
i'm letting myself i guess - i need to rein me in.
you are soundin rather detached and on some new plain out there - in your own thread. i hope you're feelin okay- and oding okay.
it is nice to chat person to person- different slant on things.
i can relate alot to you because of the age & lonevity facor. it just does count for alot. our attituted - WHO WE feel we are (h being a bigh part of w ho we are).
it could sound soooo nice in another contexty, in another world (you know- the world we thought we knew & HAD) AND IT can sound so cheesy here in this new mlc reality.
oh well huh??? blending those darn worlds - guess it's been like this since time began.
me- trying for philosophical todaY. COLD IS BACK - head is stuffed-
