No contact from w since she thanked me for signing her up for the course on Friday. (She got the course confirmation thru email and then sent a thank you text. I did not respond.)
I continue to mentally struggle with wanting to speed up the process. I went out with friends and enjoyed myself this weekend, but find myself wishing I was with my w.
It has actually become more difficult for me since I have come to believe that reconciliation is possible.
With the holidays approaching and being in this sort of limbo where I am not really sure what we are, I find myself wanting to force the issue even though I know that kind of pressure will likely push her away.
I am not really sure how others are able to stay true to potentially reconciling while going on with their lives and becoming better and happier people; I was doing better when I thought the relationship had virtually no chance.
Me-45 W-44 T-7 years M-3 years (4th anniversary July 13, but we're separated) Kids from previous relationships (s14 d16 mine, s23, s24 hers)
