Hope your jog helps. I'm going to visit my parents today, but I think I'll wear my workout clothes and go for a jog, too, while I'm there. You motivated me!!!
My H was very, very confused today, too. From what he's finally starting to say to me, our MLCers, they really, really don't know what they want or what they're thinking. Their thoughts and emotions are all over the place.
Remember what you've told me....you gotta let him be. Don't try to second guess why he's being nice. Don't try to figure him out right now because your H doesn't even know what he is thinking. There's no way you can figure it out.
You have been such a strength to me, especially this past week. You are so good at keeping a PMA and GALing. Keep doing those things. I think your H is having some clarity here and there...and he will see the "new and improved" you.
I have struggled with my H being nice to me, too. I, also, feel like he's trying to make himself feel better about what he's done...and he keeps thinking we can be friends, too, after divorcing. I'm pretty sure I don't want to be his "bestie" if he divorces me.
And, the trust thing...I can't help you with that...you know my sitch...but, I'll bet others on here can help you with that...and I'll use the advice they give you for my sitch, too. Hahaha. Any good advice you get, you gotta share.
But, I'll tell you what I keep telling myself...don't jump ahead. You're not there yet. Your H may finally come out of the fog, and you may never need to worry about being friends after a D because you'll still be happily married.
Don't worry about things that haven't happened yet, and don't worry about things that you cannot control. Let it go. (I'm telling myself this about every five minutes! Lol!)
And good for you for just staying quiet and being still. You are a strong, amazing woman who has been though a lot. You will be OK! You are special, and kind, and worthy.
