GM, thank you for checking in and your wise advice. I know all of this in my head. I don't want to be that bitter crazy woman. I speak and react to h with kindness and compassion. no I certainly don't like what he has done to our family, but I realize this is his journey. As much as I want to shake him to wake up...I know I can't make him do anything. I do see an IC. I am doing all the right things for me...I have a great support group. maybe one day I wont give a crap about what h does. wish I could get there in fact. I still love that man though. So, what can I do but trust in God's plan for me. I I know I have to come to a place of acceptance. thank you again
M48 H50 M21 T26 S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old PA confirmed 7/2012 H separates 9/2012 H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY OW still in picture. h filed 10/13