I totally understand how much this [censored]. I have been separated for three months too although it seems like a lifetime. I spent weeks going back and forty between wanting to fight for the marriage or just filling for divorce to just stop the pain. I am finally beginning to realize that filing for divorce will not end the pain. So I have stopped the internal battle over whether I should file. I told myself that I will not think about filing until after the holidays. I just could not take my emotions switching back and forth. I m ow that H could file but I can't control that.
Try and focus on the boys and yourself. You will be happy again regardless of the outcome. Go out and get an awesome haircut that you will love. There is nothing more attractive that a confident and happy woman. I changed my hair, changed how I did my makeup and it made me feel better. I did not even care that H did not comment on it because I felt awesome.
